Music is My Heart and Soul...

I sometimes wonder if my mom played music to me when I was in her womb. And if she did if I kicked and squirmed and do something off the wall... I have always felt a pull to music. I feel it in the fiber of my being. I love the beat I love the lyrics I even love the expression on the faces of those singing the song. I've been caught dancing when there is no music playing on MANY occasions. And I bop my head and tap my feet and gain the stares of curious on lookers. I inhale music too. S friend jokingly referred to me as an IPOD during a road trip out to VA Beach. We had Sirius radio playing majority of the ride and we'd be switching music stations back and forth. We played old school, new school, alternative, hip hop, r and b, everything. And regardless of the song that was playing I just sat there and sang a long. He'd turn and ask me if I knew the artist or the name of the song and half the time I did. The times when I didn't I still sang the song word for word fighting to hit every note haha! And don't try to get the mike out of my hand during Karaoke... I go IN!

I sometimes find myself listening to music when I am going through different experiences. There are different songs that I listen to when I'm happy, sad, lonely, etc. And honestly there are those times when I can hear a song that evokes an emotion in me I didn't know was there. Tears it from my soul and put it right in front of my face forcing me to acknowledge it. A song will be playing and a memory will come to mind for me. I have certain songs that ALWAYS pull a certain something out of me. There are certain songs that remind me of certain people in my life. It blows my mind that it even has that kind of power over me. Here is a snippet of my love affair with music.

**When I dance around my living room I start with: Beach Boys Good Vibrations Honestly this song really does help to bring for good vibrations when I am feeling down. It gets me pumped and ready to allow the music to heal me. After I run this track two or three times I usually am ready to let the MP3 player run at random. I'll slow dance, cha cha, do a jitter bug.. But first.. I need to be hit by the Good Vibrations...

**Song that ALWAYS brings tears of thanks to my eyes: Byron Cage I will Bless The Lord Whether I'm in Church or at home or on the street.. this song plays and my eyes well up. I just get consumed by the awesomeness that is Jesus and I'm blown away that he loves me in spite of me. It reminds me that his Grace even before I was saved carried me and it just lifts me up. Reminds me that regardless of my situation I WILL BLESS THE LORD...

**Yahoo Music Station that is playing at work: Adult RnB with the occasional switch to Gospel I work at a Mental Health apartment facility so needless to say it can get interesting...often. The Adult RnB station is in heavy rotation and it keeps me calm and far away from Burnout... When I need a extra healing I switch to the Gospel station to remember how fortunate I am...

**Song I want played at my Funeral: Cool and The Gang Celebration I don't care how I died, I don't care who went with me, I don't want my family and friends to focus on me being gone. I want them to Celebrate the good times that we had. I don't want people wearing black either. Bright colors and white. The wake (nights leading up to the funeral) they can mourn all they want. But when it is time to say good bye.... I want tearful smiles...

**New School Group That Heals Me: 112 Any Album Especially the first one In college I really grew into a passionate individual. I went through some ups and downs that surprised me and through it all whenever I would feel like I couldn't go on.. I'd sit in my room turn off all the lights and just let 112 play. Sometimes for a whole day. Id go to sleep and wake up to their voices and sometimes it didn't even matter what song was playing.. It was just something about their voices that would lift me up and soothe me...

**Old School Group That Heals Me: Earth, Wind, and Fire This group is... just phenomenal.. There are a lot of old school groups and artists that I absolutely LOVE but there is something about Earth, Wind, and Fire that gets me up gets me dancing. Not toe tapping, not bopping my head UP AND MOVING UP AND GROOOVING..

**Music TV Station: Music Choice RnB Soul I go to sleep, wake up, shower, dress, you name it to this channel. There are sometimes DAYS that come and go where I don't change the channel. It has to be a really good reason that makes me switch it from this channel. I'm even guilty of being late because I didn't want to leave while a song is playing...

**Songs Currently Haunting Me: Anthony Hamilton Point Of It All This song is currently in heavy rotation. I don't have it saved anywhere. I turn on my TV and it'll be playing on Music Choice. I'll wake up in the middle of the night and if I forgot to turn off the TV its playing. I'll wake up in the morning and that last line is fading out.. "And the point of it all... I Love You Whenever we're apart It damn near starves my heart I don't want to be apart"...

**Song that always gets me upset: Michael Jackson They Don't Really Care About Us This is self explanatory. There are so many ills in our world whenever I hear the song and am reminded I want to get up and start a rally or something Haha..

**All Time Favorite: Luther Vandross... Honestly there is maybe only one or two songs that he has EVER made that I'm not a big fan of. And that isn't even saying I don't LIKE the song. It just wouldn't be the first one I played. Luther is an Amazing Artist. I LOVE Michael... but there is just something soooo soulful about Luther that gets me EVERY time.. Michael and Prince come up right behind him though....

We'll those are a SMIDGEN of the songs that have impacted me. What songs move you, vex you, tear you down, or build you up?