Picking up my Pen

So I know I've been mia and I also know I've said the same thing before lol. I have been up in the air people. For the last month or two I've been wrestling internally with some things that I still can't figure out. And when I say figure out its not that I haven't figured out how to fix it yet. Its that I haven't figured out what I'm fighting. Something is trying to manifest itself in my life and I'm struggling. I feel like I'm being prepared for something and so I'm trying to work harder and do all that needs to be done. Though I have NO idea what I'm preparing for.

And because of all of this internal exhaustion its hard to write. I don't have writer's block per se because I've got plenty of material and know what I want to write but can't pick up a pen. Literally. I haven't even been writing in my dairy lately. That's how I know I'm struggling with something. I put my pen down.

I don't want to attribute all of this to work woes or reminiscing about closing a chapter in my life this time last year but who knows. I've recently acknowledged that I've begun giving my B game in a couple different areas in my life and have made a vow to get back on my A game. (Is it just me or am I always constantly challenging myself?) As for my writing I figure I'll start slow. You guys know I'm long winded and I give lots of reading material but I'm going to give what I can until I'm back to normal. Don't worry it'll still pack a punch.